Day 1: Thoughtless and Clueless...

It's been one of those days when you don't know if you feel good or if you feel bad. Nothing monumental happened just a bit of a downer day... but that's besides the point as it's only 7:35 and ish can get much better before the day is out. I am very family orientated and lately feel like I have been rejecting certain parts of it. Recently my family has grown and that is the most amazing feeling, this is the feeling that has brought me back down to earth and made me think... I need to spend more time with the mother. So that's what I'm doing after a moderately disappointing day I am sitting with her, which seems to have picked my day up.

Friends has been the topic of today and as this week goes on, I feel it will be a running theme. I am very sociable which makes me hard to handle sometimes, I get ideas and run with them, sort of a I won't give up until it happens, some hate, some love but that's life.

I need to settle into my music, but that's all to tend with tommorow, music video's and songs and valentines day.

I don't do valentines day. I do bro's day. Me and 3 or 4 bro's and sis's hang for the day. Were not hipsters but valentines day can be a very depressing social convention. With girls in relationships convincing there boyfriends they don't care when they really do and single girls convincing others they don't care but they really do. It can all get confusing.

I realise this blog is getting kinda long but a brainwave has just hit me. Lately I have took up the rather cruel act of fazing people out, ignoring someone till I go away. A certain guy I don't want to be a part of my life anymore but I suppose telling him is not what's right.... not that fazing out is... but I feel it won't hit him too hard. Which brings me on to my next mental question... How to deal with people that refuse to be themselves? Personally, If your not being real, I can't contend with you, cause I always have to second guess them. Ask yourself, How can you trust a person that can't trust yourself?

This is the last paragraph (promise) a lot of stuff is in the air at the moment like how tommorow will go? and how tonight will go? but I do honestly believe I will come back tommorow with something interesting to tell you blog readers.

The final question is though... If you know something important and a person very close to you is dying to know this important information, but if you tell them it'll hurt them, do you tell them? hmmmm... I guess I have stopped making sense.. probably a sign that it's time to get back to mom time.

Expect another up tommorow. Peace, DopeKid5